rain-mood...

I'm in the "rain.mood" - its raining outside...I'm going crazy...the whole f..... day am i in my house...the TV is boring, Internet is boring, everything on what I think is boring...i wish i could stop the rain...just go outside and say - "stop right now, thank you very much..now go-fuck yourself!!!"

its enough...i ll send my "rain-mood" in a little box so i can write about a thing that's bothering me... I'm thinking about the meaning of people, of humans... The main question was: Why do we exist if we destroy each other? If we making wars between to nations? What is the meaning of life? To be the strongest? richest? sexiest? Are we really happier if we have something more than others...

The whole day is not enough to wonder where the end of humans absurdity is. I'm thinking, and thinking, and thinking...and no answer or conclusion is on the horizon.

Everything whats on our way were crushing, destroying ,killing ,hunting, raping, beating, torturing...I'm speaking in the we-tone because we are all human(I think so, if I'm wrong - sorry)...OK, ill continue...its in our blood...from the beginning of human history there are just wars, wars and wars..."my neigh boor is not like me, so - kill him" or "my neigh boor has a better land or more money or resources - lets fight". It was like that before 2000 years, 1000 years even today its just like that and it seems like it will never end.

I could write, and write for days, weeks even months...i really do...I'm not joking...My inspiration has no ending...but I know how hard it is to read a mile-long post...so i leave you...for now...

sorry on my bad english...